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The Only One Who Knew The Real Me
June 5, 2007Yesterday was the turning point of my life. I went out with Madame. And we talked. And she asked me quesstions, and my plans. And I was so surprised that she knew about my problem. It's a secret I have kept for so long. Nobody helped me. They just thought that I'm making "arte". They all thought that Im very moody. They all thought that it is but normal that I'm domineering. They thought my tantrums are just normal.
They never knew, not even my parents, that I am a very angry person inside. I've been like that since I was 12. And no one was there to help me. I broke down when i was 19, and nobody knew it. And yesterday, this person knows exactly what I've been throguh. And I felt so understood for the first time in years. I felt so good that I cried. I couldn't believe that someone knows my secret. And it felt so fucking good.
It's too bad that one person has suffered the most because of the monster that Im caryring. And I lost that person. But now I know the reason behind all these events. The universe have given me a signal. And I've read it right. Knowing the purpose behind all these, the pain has lessened. It is now clear. Now it's time.
