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While I was watching you sleep
February 26, 2008I am writing this while you were sleeping in my bed… I was staring at you for a long time, and a wave of sadness washed over me. There you are, so peaceful, so sweet, so calm. But another string tugged inside me. You lied to me. and I didnt know what the fuck you were doing out there while we’ve been apart. I have only known bits and pieces and those were enough to break my heart. I didn’t cried. I promise myself never to cry again. I told myself, i’ll never see you again. But when I saw you at my door, everything changed. i welcomed you again with open arms.
But sometimes, I have so many doubts. i cannot trust you like before. and i hate it. you are so good, and i love you dearly. But i think i deserve another man. Because of you, I became a woman that i loath to be. I became wild. I became a liar, just like you. And when I found out about that fucking thing, i slept with somebody. Because I thought that the sex would free me of the hurt you caused when you cheated. But it didn’t. It made me feel worse. And I have to live with that for the rest of my life.
I am not like this. I was once a good girl. I dont just throw myself around. But you hurt me so bad I didn’t gave a fuck anymore.
Previous Comments
i hope you will be better soon. right now, things may still be cloudy but i know you’ll come to. you’re a fighter. don’t hate who you are right now. it’s just the sum of everything that you’ve been through. good luck maddy.
Posted by wits at March 3, 2008, 4:20 pmu deserve someone better!
Posted by cris at March 24, 2008, 6:47 pm








having sex or sleeping with somebody for reason that your partner is a cheat doesn’t solve the problem.
if you want to make revenge, you simply dumped him and find a better and honest partner. never make “sex with other individual” as your weapon of revenge.
Posted by jadestone at February 27, 2008, 11:20 am