In the wrong hands

She was a schoolmate in high school. Havent seen her for more than twelve years. And then, just last month, she found me at a cafe.

My parents doesnt want me to hang out with her. She has a reputation. She does drugs and hangs out with the wrong kind of people. I already consider her as my friend. And I care about her.

But then… she gets me to do crazy things. And Now, I realize that if i continue hanging out with her, i might self destruct. Last night was crazy. And everytime i remember, I feel so ashamed.

I hope no one knew. I was at my stupid self. I wont do it again. Never.

im honored to share this moment with you

So, what I've been up to?

its been three weeks since my Buang got here. And we're still together. I love this moment, you know. I can be whatever I want to be. And its so damn fine to be with a typical man… you know what I mean? I love the way he spits and burps and drives… Hey, can somebody get this unending smile off my face? Heehee. Anyways. I've been to so many pretty places. Mountains, rivers, beaches… and I'm so happy to have spent this adventure with somebody who gave me a brand new pair of eyes… It's as if i'm seeing everything for the firs time. And I feel so good, I just dont have the words to describe it. Oh shit. I hate beeing a cheeseball. But geez… can't fucking help it.

Moving on.

Thank you Lord, for the wonderful weeks that went by. Thank you. Thank you.

i want you to feel pretty even when im not here

you just dont know how happy you made me. i wish i could tell you that. i never thought i would meet someone like you… you have the coolest smile, the coolest words, the coolest everything. you gave me so much more than companionship. you just dont know how thankful i am that you're here with me. and you have such a way of making me see things differently. the past years, i felt like i was in chains… but you reminded me that life is short, so i have to make the most of it. im glad i listened. i will not get tired of saying that you gave me the most liberating experience ever.

and oh yeah, thanks for helping me conquer that waterfall. i was never that close to a rainbow in my whole life. thanks for making me feel so good. i'll always love you for that.

gotta be

Ive never felt so relaxed in my whole life.

Ive been to Sipalay.

Ive swam to beaches.

Drank lots of beer.

Puffed too much cigs.

Thanks for being here. Thanks for giving me the most liberating experience ever.

Xoxo

Missing Bruno

I woke up and thought of Bruno. I miss him so much. I especially miss his tricks… and the way he would call me by my first name or tita or mommy, all depending on his mood. I want to carry him again and tickle his sides.

Anyway, it just got me thinking… now that I'm jobless, I'm worried about Bruno… I know that he got his mom and grandparents but they can only do so much. I am inspired to get a job as soon as possible so that I will be able to provide for him again. *sigh*

I never really liked babies until Bruno came along. He's my angel

Anyway, I miss you MJ. I browsed at your phonebook and I came across an entry named "bestfriend". I dialled it and I got surprised that my Cellphone rang. Awww. I miss you biatch.

And Megs…how can I tell you? You're my favorite mistake.

A Tale of Gluttony

Just came back from lunch. My God I'm so full!!!

Me and my officemates had a meeting with our client and we picked Burgoo (podium branch). The appetizer was chicken wings with blue cheese dip… it was good. Then another appetizer was ordered which was the three- meat kebab with potato wedges. By the time I was munching the meat, I was already so full. But noooo. The seafood caesar salad came, and of course, i took a plate too. Lettuce is strange… for something so light, it could make you so full. Must be the water, huh? And for my main dish, I ordered blackened salmon with a scoop of mashed potato (terrible mashed potato evar) and house salad on the side. Halfway through my salmon, I felt a little bit dizzy. I must have lacked oxygen coz I could hardly breathe. But damn, the salmon was good. Better than orgasm, I must say. Top that with a big glass of orange juice. My fat belly is huge alright, but what I consumed was really humungous. Five minutes after the main dish was gobbled up, I caught sight of their raspberry cheesecake. Of course, I ordered it! My, the cake was gigantic, almost half of the reular plate. And the raspberry sauce was oozing!!! I shared it with my officemates, and we all agree that it's the best cheesecake so far…

I went back to the office with a bulging belly. Makes me want to go to the gym and sweat it all out.

Hmmmm….wish i could hear some of your glutonous tale

Xoxo

So, want to hear about my trip?

I'm back here in the Land of Milk and Honey… that's Manila for us promdis.

I feel like I have been gone for too long. On the way to my aunt's house, it's as if I'm seeing Manila for the first time. I felt scared, excited and antsy. Anyway…

I had a grand time in Negros. I arrived on wednesday evening. I slept in my parents' room because their AC was on, hehehe. My throat was hoarse from yakking endlessly. Ramon and Dara came to visit me and we had a  talking marathon!

Mamsi and I visited several spas. Her treat, of course. My dad.. he's cool. We consumed a ton of nicotine and wine.

One of the reasons why I so wanted to get my ass in Negros is to celebrate my 25th. Damn, I'm old. the parentals gave me a huge party. All of mamsi's clan was there… and my gayfriends and Dara and Mayang. My cake was weird… it has white and pink frosting, and the sponge is Pandan! Late at night, Megs was there too. We had several bottles of beer. Then we were joined by my childhood friends… oh my! They are now seamen, teachers, government workers…

My lil bro is all grown up. Tandy, my dog, is still adorable. My sister, I'm so touched because she made it on my birthday. Her friend gave me a lipgloss. Bobby gave me a bottle of sweet wine. The rest of my friends… they gave me letters and cards. Ha!

6 days are too short. Anyway, you might be wondering why I came back here… due to some unfinished business, of course. Work related dramas. But next month, I am so going home! Going Felicity ain't worth it. Damn.

Oh yeah.. Bruno was there too. Who's Bruno? I'll tell you in my next entry.

Note to self: Suspend your disbelief and look again at everything you had taken for granted…