Yes, its happening

This saturday… I will be in my own house, sleeping in my own room. A lot of people told me that I'm being silly for quitting my job and leaving Manila for good.

But I have to say that I am not a helpless, little girl coming home to mommy and daddy. Im simply having a "cool change". Puh Lease. Being in Manila for four years now, working my ass off… and then having a life changing event… I need to recharge. Get my bearings. and who knows where the wind will take me? I treat this stage of my life as an adventure. So… to qoute my best, WHATEVER YOU SAY, WHATEVER YOU DO, YOU CAN'T TAKE AWAY THE SMILE IN MY FACE, SO BACK OFF!!!

Anyway… people keep asking about my lovelife. i'll let you know soon. I might even post some pictures

Don't you just love life? My friend's tattoo sez: Live, love and learn.

Fitting.

Mwah to all.

Even my shrink said no

Crossroads. That's where Im fucking at. So im moving away. And everybody says Im making a big mistake. Sure I'll have my dream job in my hometown… but they say that more opportunities are in store for me in Manila. Not to be boastful, but yeah, I have turned down a number of them. I just want to get my ass back.

And I know, that if i stay here in Manila, I'll have a better life… but I dont think I can live here for the meantime. Dont accuse me of running away… I have been wanting to do this since two years ago. I am not running away. I just want to get a grip and head on… to whatever's life going to give me.

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This is the day

- that im going to say goodbye to my little workspace…

-goodbye to my whiteboard filled with reminders and silly messages

-goodbye to my swivel chair that has kept my big ass comfy and warm

-goodbye to my desk that held so many papers and sweet nothings

-goodbye to my PC…

-and sadly, goodbye to all my colleagues who are more than just mere officemates… my friends, my mates, those who believed in me and those whom I leaned on these past days. That's what makes me sadder more than ever.

Dont you just hate goodbyes? I know that this isnt the last time that I'll see them… but it's just sad to start my weekdays without seeing their faces and hearing their laughter… not being able to share jokes with them and cry with them. My lunches would never be as fun as before! But as what someone used to say, change is good. And i'll look at it that way.

So, now… my stuff are packed. Let the adventure begin!

the future belongs to those….

In a few weeks, i'll be leaving manila for good. Im excited to face the new life that awaits me in the city of smiles… but wait. I could still remember what my dad told me before i graduated from college: By the time that you're 21 and you're still in my house, I'm gonna kick your ass out.

So, here goes another disappointment, Daddie. I'm 25, and I'm returning home.

Anyway… after four years of hoping, and praying for my dream job, I've finally found it. The universe works in mysterious ways huh? God knows how I wanted that job. And now He's shoving it in my face. And I would be a fool if i don't grab it. Even if it means I'll be living with my folks again.

My mother dearest is currently renovating my room. Out with the old, in with the new. You might be wondering how am i doing. Pretty good I guess. I could cry my eyes out, and blame everyone for what has happened, but I know that life goes on. The sun still shines. The moon still rises. My fucking money is running out.

And what is a girl's bestfriend during times like this? Shopping. And chocolates. Thank God for malls and toblerone! And thank you David's Salon for keeping my toenails presentable.

Thank you- to my lilac crocs mary janes. To phone calls from Dara and Pat. To Bruno's text messages. To mother's unending queries about my day to day life. To Daddie's quirky texts. To my friend's jokes and laughter. To Coney's late night call that dreadful night.

I'll be home soon.

I’m leaving on a jet plane

Two more days and i'll be setting foot on the City of Smiles…

Family and friends has been calling me non stop. I am glad that they are there for me. I wish I could repay their kindness…

What will I do there? I've been planning this trip for a long time. God works in mysterious ways, and now I know the reason why I booked this flight. *sigh*

How am I doing? Honestly, i don't want to dwell in this shit, but do i have a choice?

My Dad asked, what are your plans? Oh daddy! Let me recover first, will you? Have I disappointed you again? Im so, so, sorry Dad! And he told me, I'll buy you a car. Take driving lessons again… And I was like, I'll be on A1 Driving School ASAP. Ha! Aren't daddies cool? Agree?

My Momma said, get your ass back here, will go to Roxas. Rrright. And what will I do there? Bore myself to tears? No offense mother dearest but I'd rather dress some chicken in our backyard. *sulks*

And my little bro, he asked me if i could buy some beautiful beads because he's going to make a bracelet for me. Awwww.

So, I have a balikbayan box, and a huge maleta. I could hear Sheryl Crow in the background: my yesterdays are all boxed up, neatly put away…

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To all those who left comments, Thank You so much. Especially for your encouragement. I'll be fixing this blog real soon, so excuse me if i could not link you right now, but soon, I will! Promise!!!

All together now: MADWOMAN, WELCOME TO SINGLE LIFE!